I do not want anyone to feel like I think I am perfect. I am not. I am aware of my weaknesses. I also know my strengths. Frank and I were just unequally yoked (2 Corinthians 6:14). We are two very different people. He never understood my heart. I used to plead with Frank to open up to me and tell me what was on his heart, but he never would. You see, he had too much to hide. What was really frightening to me was when I received a letter from the woman he was having an affair with. It was his letter to her! He was so open with her. He was bearing his soul to her. He was vulnerable. Frank never showed that part of himself to me and it hurt when I realized that some other woman knew him in that way.
I am an open book. I don’t hide anything and I leave myself very vulnerable to getting hurt. Because of that, I was an easy target for Frank. He was a manipulator and I was easy to manipulate. I let it happen until I started being “real.” Then my life changed for the better. God was answering my prayers. I believe His Word when He said, “All things work together for good for those that love the Lord” (Romans 8:28), and I cling to that hope.
Try to know who you are and what you want in life. Don’t let Satan snatch your future away from you. Don’t settle for less than you deserve. I took some college courses as the kids were growing, but I never finished college to get my bachelor’s degree. I always wish that I had. I really didn’t find out who I was until later in life. Please don’t wait that long. Find out now…prayerfully set your goals, listening for God’s direction, and don’t let anything stop you! Pray that God will help you to become a woman that He will be proud of. May God bless you all!